RISING TO THE OCCASION

It doesn't take much to make me change my tune. That last post was a bit of a rant, and I stand behind it, but I'd like to make this one more of a shout out. Let's hear it for the boys! Today I had to work a long day after getting food poisoning and pulling a 10 day work week. The puppy I just got has been a lot to handle, especially when I'm puking and can hardly walk and its all just a bit much to do by myself. So my friend Jeff came and took the puppy, gave me a hug, and has kept me updated every few hours on how the pup is doing and how work is going (he is also working on this job with me). That is all I needed!! I can't sing enough praises to him. He's HANDLING it, so I don't have to. He's giving me updates so I don't worry!! its amazing. Which is making me realize this- Its not fair to men that I have this issue of thinking the world is on my shoulders. I need to chill out. Relax and trust a little bit more so I don't give myself grey hair. I am an oldest child, I had a lot of responsibility, a lot of adult responsibility. I took on my parents problems at an early age and it has made me a little cuckoo in some areas. I get distrustful and think the world is going to crumble, I think I will be disappointed etc. These are my issues and I'm working on it! I'm sorry to the men in my life that unfortunately have to suffer the consequences of my upbringing. But that is life right? We are a collection of experiences. When we meet, we are meeting the summation of that person up to that point. This is what I've got. Now I need to be the one to rise to the occasion.