MEMORIAL DAY

Memorial day, memorial day trivia at the bar on my block with neighbors. He had been drinking since 4, I was sober. He touched my leg, I knowingly laughed and put my hand on top like a game. He asked if we were going to make out after, I laughed and said "what? that was bold of you" hoping the humored response would throw him off as much as he had thrown me off. He asked again- are we going to make out. I said, "where is this coming from? we have known eachother for years!" That didn't work either. He touched my leg, I turned as if i wasn't noticing. then he asked what he could do to seduce me I said "no." He said what are you doing after this? I said maybe I'll take a walk, or work on something at home. He said we could walk together. I said okay to get him off my back, knowing it wasn't going to happen. The night ended with me safely in the arms of a friend who did not want to seduce me, and drunk horny friend walking home alone. But I kept thinking about the question he asked- what do I have to do to seduce you? You'd have to be my friend, make me feel safe, let me see something you do that is noble, and maybe even convert to mormonism? I have to know that your goals in life involve, marriage, family, and financial stability. Seduction is a delicate thing, maybe I'm weird, but I'm into that kind of "good guy friends family values trust" thing. Have I lost all romance? have I lost my caution to the wind and experience it all attitude? I think so.