CONVERSATIONS ON SET

Today the photographer I was working with said, "you know, life is great, but its even better when you have someone to share it with." Like an arrow to my heart I was stopped cold. I know its true, but I don't want to think about it. I don't want to hope for something I have no control over. But do I have control over it? No- my therapist said control is an illusion, and Bro. Christiansen said at Ed week that before you play a duet, you just play the piano alone as best as you can. Thats what I'm doing, I'm playing the piano alone as best I can. Am I playing to an empty room? People keep talking around me about how they are going to leave New York and have families because the quality of life is so much better elsewhere. Do I need to leave New York to find love? It hardly seems fair that I would have to give up my first love NYC, for a possibility that may never come to fruition. Then where would I be? playing to an empty room in some other city not as great as the one I'm in now. I guess what I'm saying is that I would rather be alone here than alone somewhere else. If I found love though, I wouldn't care where I was.