SUMMER DAY

She met up with an old flame at the new pool that just opened in Williamsburg. They hadn't missed a step with each other although it had been almost a year since they last met. The pool was crowded to a point that you felt like you were in Beach Blanket Bingo, but sand was replaced with concrete. It was a mix of people, a watering hole exactly. She felt happy, the water, the sun, and the man made for a good mix. His humor reminded her why they had chemistry. He touched her in the water briefly while she stretched, in a comfortable non flirty way that let her guard fall down a little. After a couple dips they went to Jimmy's Diner. It was remarkably un-crowded for a restaurant in Williamsburg on a Saturday so they were seated right away. She ordered chicken and waffles, he a breakfast sandwich. With how good the food was and how easy the day was going, they both felt a little drunk on summertime. She knew her guard was falling and he might ask her to come over. They left Jimmy's saying goodbye, he hugged her with his whole body. She had not been hugged in that way in at least a year. She let her stomach relax so it could get closer to his, and let her face nuzzle his neck. He kissed her, in the brightness of day and asked her to come over. She said no, she needed to walk the dog. He said to come over after.....She said okay. His bed had not changed. She remembered why they stopped dating. But she like the bed, was not any different. The sun made long shadows before it disappeared. She was full, and felt connected to her body. On her way home she rode her bike through the water of a spraying fire hydrant. It reached in an arched rainbow across the entire street to fully immerse anyone that passed.

MY DAD SENT ME THIS

This is pretty discouraging

OK CUPID DATE

My sister told me I need to update my online dating profiles. So I did. After my profile was on silent for a year it was resurrected to "put myself out there." I'm now updated on ldssingles and okcupid.com. On Wednesday I went on a date with a 25 year old software developer that likes to cycle. He was pleasant, good conversation, and had good social cues. I didn't feel pressure, it was just two nice people in the neighborhood meeting up for a drink. I was happy to be keeping my chops sharp and at the end of the date I thought, I wouldn't mind seeing this guy again. Now that all the surface info is out there, here is what was actually going through my head. I've been watching The Bachelorette (don't judge), and on that show, Emily gets to ask all the tough questions right off the bat. Time is precious on that show so they have to move it all forward faster than you normally would. But I ask, why can't I do that too? I know there should be mystery and nuances and all that, and I think you still can even when you lay it all out on the table. But asking all hard questions at least finds out if you are on the same page. I don't want to scare a dude off by talking about babies and stuff, but at the same time, I don't want to be with someone who IS scared off by that. I just wanted to cut to the chase. I have a hard time just having a nice time, small talk conversation. Let's get real! Who's with me?!

GETTING THOSE PRIORITIES DOWN

Lets just stop messing around here. I want to be in love, I want to have babies, I want the house, the kids, the cooking, and the ladies crafting night. I'm a New York independent woman and I want what I want when I want it! Normally I'm not so brazen, but I've been taking care of a small dog that cuddles and loves me and we played with 2 little girls today and I'm pretty sure I'd be VERY happy if that were a regular occurrence. I want to stop pining and waiting and hoping. I want to move on! I spend all my energy on being happy with whatever God gives me, but right now I'd like to move much faster.